friends

Met up with Cristal, Aikuen and Lixian today, so sad Yilin couldn't join us. Went to CWP for lunch and it's so different now! So many shops but omg I really don't understand why there are soooooooooo many people everywhere, it's kinda frustrating yo. Anw we had yummy pizzas from Empire State and Yami Yoghurt and I ate Macs w jh for dinner. Omg super fattening and my stomach gonna explode already!!

Anyway I really miss my friends. Sometimes I really regret missing out so much in their lives. I feel like a bad friend, really. And I always have excuses for this and that, I really hate myself for that. I hate school. I hate what happened in the past. I hate explaining myself because the more I explain, the more I don't make sense. I hate thinking so much. I hate being a pessimist. I hate myself. I really do. I think I really need some help. Maybe I am just lonely.. I do feel like that all the time. It's an empty feeling, you understand? I don't know what I'm thinking about all the time too. I am going crazyyyyy I needa stop this.