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i don't really like it when i am so emo, like i can just cry over something small. today i had my only paper of the sem, it's quite sad cos i kinda screwed up even though i spent quite some time revising it. but okay, nvm i need to stop thinking about it. so i went to imm and had ajisen with jh, and came home doing nothing. and then suddenly my friend told me that she was depressed as she couldn't find an internship and stuff, and i chanced upon this blog of a guy in one of my module. it's scary and depressing. everyone's so talented, everyone had the experience of going to exchange, everyone has aspirations.. big ones. what am i doing with my life? it's so sad that i didn't do much for the past 3 years in uni. seriously nothing. my internship was crap seriously. and i did not join any cca (one but didn't go after a sem), and joined a few random stuff here and there but wasn't totally serious about it. why am i always like that? i don't know what i am waiting for.. i always think that something is out there somewhere but apparently not. it's like.. i keep thinking that i can do the art stuff that i like, but i never did and even if i did, i am not as good as what i thought, and it wasn't as satisfying as what it was supposed to be. anw i think i screwed up my paper just now.. i totally wrote crap. it's so sad, 2 full years of hard work will be gone already, all because of this sem's shit. how now brown cow? i am nothing, i have nothing, i might be nothing.